♥

You are, the only exception.

Mon, 15 Mar 2010 12:54:50 GMT

I prefer people who are sincere.
I hate reading too much into everyone, it always makes me sad.
I hate expecting too much, especially those basic human being traits that always go so wrong.
All you know, are things about yourself, your dreams, your world.
There's no exception.

I hate hate hate myself. Stupid, ugly, selfish, useless and everything bad. Yeah, that should be it. Anyways I am currently in a bad situation. Nobody can help me except myself. Good luck to me!

(Reposted this from a stranger's tumblr)

Wed, 24 Feb 2010 14:56:11 GMT

"If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with. You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me. But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible."

How true.

HIHIHI

Tue, 16 Feb 2010 17:05:37 GMT

Omg, I am totally in love with nail polishes right now. NEXT TIME IF YOU ALL WANT EXPRESS MANICURE PLEASE LOOK FOR ME I HELP YOU ALL DO OKOK. HEHEHE. :) Okay shall collect nail polishes yay. :)

Anyways wah die, I have so much work to do but I'm not doing much. But I am not celebrating CNY either, damn boring one right. Sigh. Okay. I received 3 damn cute ang baos.

Hehe. The last one my father gave me one leh, damn cute. He gave JH the boy version. And I realised nowadays all ang baos have slits instead of the sticky part, which is good! I like!

Okay bye! Take care people.

☀power rangers☀

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 05:38:18 GMT

Okay, this post is all cos of Aikuen adding me in Twitter, which led to me visiting her blog and all the other rangers' blogs. I don't know why but I feel as if ytd was just 2007? Like J1, J2 period? Haha. Anyways they really helped me a lot, really made me feel very happy and they are really important to me. They really make me respect them a lot, awesome girls. And I just can't seem to let go of those memories in JC, always looking back. Thank you all for being my friends and accepting me for who I am even though I always never play with you all, like those outdoor games haha. I am really scared of heights and injuries ahhh sorry~~~ hehe. I love power rangers! I hope all of them will be happy forever and may all the prettiest things happen in their lives. :)

HIHI VERY LONG POST

Thu, 07 Jan 2010 08:15:39 GMT

Okay I am really bored. I hate the bidding system sigh. Will never get what I want, since sem 1. Omg, but I really hope this time round I can get this module even though it is not my first three choices! Whenever I refresh the page I wanna scold those people who bid for my course. Argh. Hate you guys! >:(

Okay since last week, I have been going out with all my friends, catching up and having fun! I know I do complain about not having time for myself, sitting at my table and drawing/writing random stuff, but haha, it's all worth it I guess. :) Actually I realised for the whole 2009, I seldom had time for myself, doing things that I really like even though there's nothing much that I really like to do. Whenever I was free, it would most likely be during the weekends, and JH would drop by my house and chill with me. Lol. Or else I would be going out with friends. And first half of the year was spent working, second half studying. Seriously I feel as if I am waiting for something to happen in my life, that's why I am doing all these, like working and studying. But I don't know what is it that I am waiting for.. and before I know it, maybe my life's over already haha.

Sometimes people are really complicated creatures, yes? Sigh, I really hope I am not so sensitive all the time, reading too much into everything but I hate to pretend that nothing's happening and I am happy. Sometimes when I'm not thinking too much, I can really feel pure happiness from every little things around me, especially my aircon and fan and jacket and everything that make me feel comfy. :) I really love them so much I think I will cry if all of them are spoilt. Sigh. Anyways I will stand in front of my aircon and keep taking in the fresh air from my aircon whenever I on it. Damn shiok leh omg hehehe. Am looking forward to midnight now! :):)

But anyways, as I was saying, people people. Sigh. I think I am like more anti-social now, or rather can't be bothered, or maybe I understand everything already. Haha. So like what my family and close friends said, maybe I should just learn to let go of all those silly stuff, and maybe I don't have to follow rules all the time anymore. But just to let you know, I am very upset/hurt because of you haha.

Okay I know I am a lucky girl. I have family and friends around me who care for me. I have JH too but sometimes I feel very tired of everything even though everything is perfect. Have you ever felt that your life is good enough or you are very satisfied with everything so far and you are ready to go? Haha. I feel this way all the time! Dreams and goals are all just superficial, no? Things seldom happen the way you want them to be, it's really boring and demoralising. I know there are people who are in much worse situations than me, but I think everyone will have a fair share of ups and downs in life and it all depends on how you look at them, right? Haha. My life is awesome, but I am very depressed all the time. So yeah. But I hope I won't lose all these stuff.

Anyways tell you a secret, I have been thinking of getting a tattoo with my sister since like ages ago, inspired by my father hahaha. But still don't know where to tattoo! :/ Okay I think this might be a crazy post to whoever who reads it hahaha. But okay, maybe I won't do it. Haha. All the best to everyone around me in 2010! :):)

K bye!

Thu, 10 Dec 2009 16:15:02 GMT

Hihi~ I am bored, it's like 12am now but it's too early to sleep right? Haha. Okay, past few days were alright, met up with my friends and went out with mummy today. What will tomorrow be like? Okay, definitely gonna eat shaker fries! Craving for them like crazyyyyyyyy hehe. :) Anyways I think all my friends are so pretty seriously. :) Okay bye!

WEDNESDAY

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 13:38:38 GMT

So... today I spent the whole day cleaning my room. Sometimes I really think I can be a maid or something. Wah like from 1pm to 9pm I had been cleaning and cleaning and tidying and tidying, very efficient! Tomorrow I shall continue! Yay! Anyways it's weird how dust exists. I think I'm gonna get some dust-icide(if there's really one) hahaha. Don't know what I'm typing. Hmm.. byebye!

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 17:10:56 GMT

I don't know what's wrong with me haha. I have good life right? I am lucky right? Omg kill me. I am feeling inferior now, like ugly and stupid and useless. Veryyy.

Anyways one sem is like over and it's super fast. Great alum, great new friends and some whom I am really proud of! Something that I've learnt, just follow your dreams and be optimistic because it will come true. It doesn't seem to be the case for me, hahaha. OH WELL~

Meeting crystalball and happyenergysource tomorrow. :) Hope it doesn't rain! Hahaha and I made a very funny joke today I think. Like my friend was mentioning earthquakes and stuff, I was totally random and said, "because... 2 .0.1.2 is hereeee~~~". Okay goodnight I am going to follow my dreams tonight. Damn emo I tell you.

I hope you you you are doing well and I know you are. :)

elearning week

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 17:07:04 GMT

Hello e-learning week this week! Think I did badly for midterms but kind of not motivated to study anymore you know. I feel that my life is good enough. Sometimes I feel tired of living on. But okay nvm, kind of impossible to die anyways. Hmm.. oh ya I think I am going to fail my test, like seriously FAIL. So sad, I didn't even think during the paper. :( And I think I am not doing well in school academically too, I am really stupid and useless as compared to the others, and now I keep thinking about my future cos the others are like so motivated and have a goal and plans. And you know I am like super pessimistic? So you can guess what's the conclusion of my thoughts eh. Sigh. Don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I will die from this man, like have retribution for not being like the rest. I miss my power rangers, I miss peilin and cheryl and US and everyone else. I had an awesome date w PL during recess week, good good. And went to the sei smth with PR, missed them lots! Good good. Oh anyways, my msn nick is liweejrpczu you know why? liwee, jianhui, rangers, peilin, cheryl, zhiyang, US. Hahaha abit childish. Okay. I am always thinking about the past. Byebye I think I need to buck up and stop thinking about how sucky I am.

Don't know what he's trying to do hahaha. Our 2nd year on the 18th this month yay yay yay! He never reads my blog, think he doesn't even know, so not romantic pig. Okay gonna sleep. Byebye!

omg

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 16:29:39 GMT

There's this weird looking insect beside me now, howhowhow!! Anyways, kinda dread school. Lots of readings to do for gem, boring to the max. Think I am going to fail this assignment. I am so tired! And jh is not back yet.. two more weeksss, :(:( Life sucksss.

Blessing in disguise

Tue, 11 Aug 2009 07:24:01 GMT

Hello, today is the first day of school, and I only had one marketing lecture from 12 to 2. The lecturer was funny, but I'm kinda afraid that I'm not absorbing anything from the lecture. After that I came home and did my stuff, it feels good to be home in the early afternoon relaxing. With the radio on, and a cup of teh bing, surfing the net and stuff, woooo shiok. I don't know what I'm typing, but I just feel carefree, esp. since I know I needa start to study from now on and yet I can still have a mini break. Sigh.. and jh is leaving soon. So sad like seriously. I miss all my friends!

Sat, 08 Aug 2009 05:27:26 GMT

5 July

Sat, 04 Jul 2009 17:23:23 GMT

Today is my mummy's birthday, hopefully we will all be able to wake up early in the morning to eat breakfast at the market (cos that's what we planned for the past few days but woke up at 11 instead haha). Okay, I can't sleep so I felt like blogging using my phone. Sleeping is such a chore nowadays. Erm, watched Ice Age 3 today but not the 3D one. But it's still nice, damn cute go watch! Haha. I'm kinda emo now cos I thought of school again, like 3 more weeks?? Sighhhhhhhh omg this is so super fast. And I think me and jh won't have much time together too. :(

Anyways I was telling him about a very sweet quote I read online, and he talked about lit or what, like poems with AABB or ABAB. So, we thought of our own poems, super crap. Haha.

Today I took a cab,
Because I had a heavy bag.
Suddenly I heard a crack,
I realised I hurt my back.

And and..

I went to the shopping mall,
And saw a man so tall.
He banged into the wall,
And became (something ball I can't remember)

His poems were super boring and not funny so I kept changing to these 2. Haha, okay crappy post. Goodnight people I pray that time gonna tick by slowly seconds by seconds everyday thank you. :(

2 JULY

Thu, 02 Jul 2009 13:02:55 GMT

Heyo, this coming Sunday is my mum's birthday! Okay, don't know what to get for her man. And the shoes I ordered OOS already, so okay, can save moneyyy. I was kinda regretting buying it cos it's kind of expensive but now, hehehe. And my jelly camera is arriving woohoo! I am a spendthrift seriously, and I buy lots of junk omg. I think the clothes I bought are really ugly lol. I am left with like, 3 weeks plus of holidays. Last time I was still kinda proud cos I had like 6 MONTHS of holidaysss.. you know the difference? Okay, I wanted to blog about MJ's death. I'm not a big fan of MJ, but I'm just kinda sad looking at his photos, and the story his best friend told about him. King of pop, like seriously. Anyways, I heard one of his songs over the radio recently and I loveeee it, but I don't know the title of the song and can't rmb how the song sounds like anymore, omg this is kind of frustrating. Anywaysss, I still don't understand why people die and I am scared of dying. I don't know where I'm gonna be and who I will meet, or maybe I won't even meet anybody and I can't think anymore when I'm dead. But you know, my grandfather left his palm prints in the rice pot in my kitchen on his 7th day of death. Kinda creepy, but cool also. I am already 19 and I have done nothing great. I don't wanna go to school.

Fri, 15 May 2009 16:14:20 GMT

Sian, my computer got virussssss. And jh go recce, and I think I am ugly and fat, and I think I am missing out on many things.

hehe

Sun, 10 May 2009 16:19:13 GMT

Okay think my subject is so gay haha. I think I am a shopaholic omg. I WANNA SAVE MONEY MONEY MONEY. Okay from today till 6 June I am going to spend 132 bucks only. I don know how am I gonna survive but yea, haha. And I am not going to eat good food so I hope my friends won't tempt me, esp. jh hahaha. And I am gonna keep away from shopping malls and maybe I should like erm, do smth else instead of shopping online everyday ahhhh. I think my clothes are ugly man. I think I am ugly. Haha, okay I am looking forward to working tomorrow cause I am left with a month there. Hehe. Kind of happy to set my own target but I think it's kinda stupid. And I think I am really slack nowadays cause there are like so little customers/all customers are so weird and irritating. I hate it when people threaten me that Singtel/M1 is better or whatever shit and ask me to give more discounts/benefitsss. I hate people who don't believe me when I told them which promo is better for them, waste my time. Tsk tsk. But nvm one more month hehe. Goodbye!

omg

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 16:37:22 GMT

OMG THIS IS CRAZY. I LOST MY BLOGSPOT ACCOUNT AND NOW, SOB SOB I CAN ONLY SEE MY BLOG BUT CANNOT UPDATE. Sigh.. I can't even find the username anymore. What did I dooooo :(:( So I think I will only be updating here until I think of a url for my new blogspot bloggg. :(:( So sad.

Fri, 28 Dec 2007 17:41:02 GMT

hello, i'm sick. 3 more days to school! goodnight hahaha.